i let myself paint my world beige and never let myself live.
i never do anything i want to do, i let others have the first say.
i have no respect for myself, i let everyone walk all over myself so i take the easy way out
and i learned not to care.
when all i wanna do is scream out loud and paint my world bright pink and say fuck you to all the non-believers, to all the haters, the ones who made me feel this way in the first place and every one's to blame even myself for letting things go this far, for letting myself feel this way for so many years, my family for not letting me know everyday just how fucking amazing i really am, for always making me feel weak, I'm tough, I'm strong, and that's something that you'll never know cause you don't really know the true Kirby the Kirby that screams but nobody hears.
I'm not saying I'm perfect cause Jesus i know, I'm horrible at times, i can be the worst possible person on the planet if i wanted to be but know that i never feel good about it...
i need to learn to respect myself and not let people walk all over me all the time, i need to use the voice i have and tell people to back off but i know that will take time, this girlie needs a lot of work.
i need to learn to live and do what i w